Beauty in Brisbane
I think you've maybe got this a bit wrong. I don't think sexual attraction to another person is dependent solely on beauty, and I don't think beauty is an absolute. Sexual attraction is a mysterious stew. Physical beauty is one ingredient, but so is smell, and what one person finds beautiful may leave another person cold. If this guy has told you that he could love you if only you were beautiful, as if beauty were a thing as measurable as your height, then I think he lacks both self knowledge and tact. The French have the term "jolie laid" for a reason. xoxoxo
I found your dance mesmerizing and beautiful. Though I can very much relate to my body no longer matching my inner sense of self. I was also a dancer as a younger person, and I think maybe aging and changing is even more fraught for people who were very much embodied in their youth—athletes and dancers and gymnasts, for example.
I’m sorry the fellow wasn’t as attracted to you as he needed to be. Sounds a bit like a dumbass.
Wow, that's sad. Amazing that you got him to admit his reason. You're still beautiful and an elegant dancer. And as Yavor says, you're also an incredibly good writer.
I'm a former Brisbanite, so your writing conjured some nostalgia in addition to the appreciation of your writing and perspective I often feel reading your blog. It's such an interesting thing to consider what goes into compatibility in any kind of general sense, and let's neglect consideration that it can be distinctly ephemeral. Beauty and physical attraction are particularly difficult to understand, but I very much like your stoic take on this rejection being dealt on such grounds. As you describe, you aren't responsible for your looks. I do think that we augment the genetic contribution to our appearance in many ways, even the more carefree types in the world, with the sense of style we bring in all sorts of ways. I actually think these can add up to quite the intellectual and creative representation of ourselves, which is also subject to critique by others. I will also suggest, as gently as I can, that while evolution has very obviously shaped our perception, including of human form, that our environment also impacts it dramatically. It's probably about as likely that this chap's personal experience is as responsible for his opinion of your appearance as his evolution. Enjoy the rest of your time down there.
You write incredibly well Iona, every piece is a pleasure to read!
This is just so refreshingly honest, relatable and bittersweet. I love how you tie place and nature into it as well. Thank you for writing it.
The day will come, perhaps even in many of our lifetimes, where the destiny of genetic beauty will be thoroughly renegotiated.
It will be interesting to see what happens to the rules of attraction when it is affordable for most to have a youthful, supple body.